I am lying on bench watching toward ceiling near to her at gyne ward at weatern regional hospital of Pokhara .I am trying to consoling her but couldn’t control myself .
it’s very dificult for parents losing their baby .it may be the most dificult grif i have faced in life .it’s sixth day we have lost our baby boy .how many days we stay mourning with grief ?though I denied of lost , I have to face the reality .
I waked up early in the morning; trying to change my these difficult condition .i have to fit and healthy for our future .i have other family members waiting for us .i haven’t bathed since 12days after her admission on hospital .i had no mood for doing any daily activities . I realized how many days i live this way ?i trid to make me strong .
after taking bath , we went open place near to ward and took long breathe five -six times ,that realize me ,i have to do lots of things , i have to live .
anyway i have to forget this tragic moment .